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Saturday, 14 November 2009
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You and I - Park Bom
Woo, I know its been a long time since I decided to write anything here.
Well, life got rolling really fast and I didn't have time to sit down to write down everything I felt or did anymore :(
Plus, most of the things that were rolling towards or with me are pretty normal kinda things, like a typical teenager life know? You get the drift :)
School's fine, Lecturers are fine (ok, most of them?), Lectures are alright (alot of self-study sessions), Lab Practicals are HELL FUN (I miss Cell Biology btw, come back soon LeeLee), Weather is horrible cause it keeps changing really abruptly and weirdly (its monsoon season you see + global warming = terrible weather changes = sick aishah).
I love school, I dread end of the week because not only is it 4h of IOChem but also I don't get to see my love till Monday. 2 days is long enough to make me go crazy know? Plus, everything's more fun with her around :) She's awesome by the way. Like she makes me calm, think +ve-ly about everything (well, I know she tries to make me feel better/good all the time, sweet love, that's what unnie-dongsaengs are for), ensures that I work well, you know self-motivated, motivated, focused on the right things for the right period of time - study + play, and makes sure that I am always having my meals so that I can be healthy! She looks after me a lot though it might not be very obvious, well at least I think so too, angels :)
I really think life is resuming back like how it used to be, the study-24/7-in-mind-so-that-I-can-be-a-doctor life.
Which is a good thing know? Cause it makes me feel so secure, not much nonsense to worry about other than school. Plus, good company (ies) makes life more comforting.
Haha, I know I don't usually speak much anywhere, but just so you know, I'm fine :)

I like to do this, stare at some random object and have lots of thoughts of about it and then when someone recognizes me or when someone says Hi, I'll have to switch the dazed face to a really smiley-HELLO face. *chuckles*
It's a funny transition, no?
Btw, Park Bom is hot.
So is Seungri.
Taeyang's new MV was sad.
Park Bom's 'You and I' MV drove me to tears.
YG loves sad korean dramas.
Except for Bong's MVs.
They're all HIS concepts, so I don't think Jiyong likes sad MVs.
Cause they're so pretty and abstract and hot, lol.
Seungri has a nice voice.
*SQUEALS*
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I see a lot of heart shapes on Facebook recently.
Makes my eyes go ._. and my heart go wth is wrong with you people we're suppose to study now so that we can become future doctors, lawyers, president of the entire nation, CEO of XYZ company, a really smart scientist, a recognized surgeon, and the list goes on. And NO, I'm not anywhere near jealous, just annoyed why people do this. Maybe I don't understand what is it like and maybe I'm just a workaholic. Lol, people and perceptions of their own lifes. Can't do much to change their purpose in life know? It's my drive.
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There's so many things to complete, I'm given that much time to do so.
Reports after reports, non-stop.
Tutorials after tutorials, non-stop.
Lectures after lectures, non-stop.
Band practices, and more of them.
Okay the first 3 is fine, the last one is a pain in my tush.
Can't wait for MD to end so that I can get a good long rest from the stress of double-tonguing, triplets, 160 beats and what-nots, right love?
And no, I don't wanna go overseas with people I don't know or with people I'm not sure of.
Lol, I tried and epik failz. Not a nice feeling~
MST > HOLS > MD > HOLS > SCH > EXAMS :D
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What am I blabbering about huh, I should sleep because the night is very cold *hides under covers*
I won't wake up at 6am tomorrow, I MUST NOT WAKE UP AT 6AM TOMORROW! *tape shut eyelids*
Keep warm everybody :3
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I wished we owned a house, and my bed was yours, my comforters are yours too and so are the pillows~
Most importantly, I'm definitely yours love :3 *winks*
Haha, I keep saying I wanna rape you -_- but youre just so nice to touch.
Those. . *stops*
You and I forever and ever.
Right love?
Keep warm~
Saturday, 17 October 2009
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Breathe - G-Dragon
Hello :)
I wonder how everyone's doing, other than myself.
School's commencing really soon I am looking forward to the hardship.
I want to quit CCA, it has been on my mind since the first time I saw Joseph's face (NAH I WAS KIDDING, probably it was Kinwah's face, IM KIDDING STILL)
Everyday 8am - 5pm.
I will die of exhaustion or something.
Plus band... I should just bury myself.
So like muscles, they feed on oxygen so that we can keep running.
All I have to do is BREATHE.
I wanted to say alot of things but I decided not to because I'm already an epik lozerz and whining will only make me an epik SORE lozerz.
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Seungri had a haircut a few days ago, or maybe a few weeks ago, and I don't like it :(
So no Seungri-picka today :(
Cause I'm mad that they cut his hair like that :(
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Park Bom shall replace him :)
Cause I cannot decide on which G-Dragon's picture.
She's pretty and adorable, reminds me alot of someone.
Look forward to an awesome semester!
Okay bye :)
Saturday, 10 October 2009
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바보 - Big Bang
I'm really mad at everything.
Like I can't seem to bring across my point.
Geez.
I feel so mad at myself for being so whiny.
Whine whine whine yet I obtain nothing but become more mad.
It's always about me that's why I don't like talking about it.
It's always held back I don't know why.
It's just weird talking about stuff like this.
Because we don't.
I feel really mad for being so controlled over everything.
For once, wish I could just stop analysing everything.
It's very overwhelming.
I feel so troubled and depressed.
It's stupid that I keep pushing everyone away.
I feel like they don't know or will never understand what I'm trying to tell them.
It's bugging meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee like crazy.
SO FRIGGIN FRUSTRATING.
I should just stop and sleep.
I don't feel like doing anything actually just sulk maybe.
So troubled so so troubled.
Maybe I'm thinking too much like I feel people think I'm nuts for thinking about myself that way.
I seriously do.
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Need to lose more.
Hate everything.
Die.
Thursday, 17 September 2009
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I Never Wanna Miss - Sandara Park
It has been a while hasn't it? :P
My bad~
I caught the lazy syndrome plus the I don't want you to know what's in my mind syndrome, for a month.
Geez, that's some serious shyte >_<
Well, yesterday was my dad's birthday!
He shares the same birthday as Mr Lee Kuan Yew!
Ain't that awesome? :D
Happy Birthday~
Woo, we celebrated with some high-sugar-high-calorie icecream at Swensens.
I feel very self-conscious nau, I want to run but I can't~
I'm not done with cleaning, more like merely started.
Sometimes, I wished my house was like smaller.
Well, it'll be cosier and easier to clean.
Too bad for me :(
Anw, Happy Birthday :D
We love you very much, hope you really liked the gift despite the poor wrapping skills (my bad). But the card was awesome wasn't it? My teddy wrote you a note! :DD My teddy is awesome.
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It's 2 days to Hari Raya.
I'm kinda lazy-not-very-excited for it.
I dunno, this year has been a little (little?!) different.
I'm more like overwhelmed that it's all gonna be over soon.
I dunno how I'm gonna survive being forced to go everywhere to visit people and forced to eat that much. I'm worrying so much, I should stop shouldn't I? :(
I mean a MONTH not eating that much is really changing my eating habits.
I hate snacking nau, I hate icecream nau, I hate anything that has lotsa sugar and milk.
In fact I'd rather have my foodstuff taste pretty bland like those rice crackers that LSJ always eat.
I think they're tasty I dunno why.
Something's terribly wrong with my body.
I cannot eat as much, in fact I keep cutting down the food intake that's already so freaking little.
I mean who isn't worried, or maybe I'm just paranoid.
I can't finish meals anymore and I take half-an-hour to eat my dinner.
For the amount that's so little, I think I'm crazy.
D:
Sleeping hasn't been very well either.
Sucks to the maximum core I feel like I never sleep.
NEVER.
I tried sleeping early yesterday cause I was feeling sick from the ice cream and damn exhausted.
Slept for 2 hours before waking up and then slipping back into sleep and then waking up again and the cycle continues for another 2 hours.
I feel insane, I keep breaking out in cold sweats during sleep and trembling.
I think it's really insane :(
And I'm not done with cleaning.
I feel so lazy, come on Aishah.
You can do this!
I hate messy stuff and dusty places, serious.
My husband is gonna have a hard time living with me.
I'm gonna make him crawl on his knees and scrub out the floors till I see my reflection.
Like I'll make Saturday the official day to clean and scrub or else no one can go anywhere on Sunday.
You won't like that would you?
I sound/look scary, I don't think anyone would ever wanna marry anyone like me keke~
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Dongsaeng is currently sick.
I wonder if she has gone to the doctors yet.
You better or I-.. I dunno, I won't talk to you till you have.
(Yeah right)
Yes right.
Take care, geez, it's really killing me.
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Talking about Jiyong got me reminded me of Jiyong.
Anw I had this really weird dream.
All about Jy.
This few weeks, my dreams have always been about Jy and Sr is just the extra or sth.
Well yesterday's short nap was about Jiyong getting my number and calling me.
Jiyong called me from Korea so the number appeared as "Private".
Aishah: Hello?
Jiyong: ...
Aishah: Hello hello? *pissed cause it's awkward and I sound stupid*
Jiyong: erm.. He-...
Aishah: Yebusaeyo?
Jiyong: Ah! Yebusaeyo~
Aishah: Mmm? *Sounds freaking familiar this funny high pitched voice*
Jiyong: Is this-... Aishh, how do I say this? Ai-.. Ai-..shh-...
Aishah: *EPIK LOSER/FAILURE* It's Aishah. Who is this?
Jiyong: Guess who!
Aishah: Erm... *nervous* Ji-..jiyongie? (Still had the cheek to call him jiyong-IE)
Jiyong: Neh~
Aishah: *freaks out and spazz* OMO OMO JIYONGIE? OMAIGAD OMO O.O. *but then paranoia sets in and kept thinking this is an asshole prank caller*
Jiyong: Neh~ How are you?
Aishah: Fine. *Still spazzing* Omaigad, are you sure you're Jiyong? I can't breathe. *Literally*
At this point of time I felt someone choking me in my sleep.
I couldn't breathe.
Amazingly and hilariously, the dream continued for a few more minutes before I woke up in cold sweats.
Jiyong: Haha~ (Jiyong's famous adorable chuckle/laugh) I'm sure I am really Jiyong.
Aishah: OMAIGADDDDDDDDDDD *spazz summore* JIYONGIE~ Why did you call me?
Jiyong: Well, it's something like a lucky fan gets a phone call kinda thing.
Aishah: Oh. *tries and remember where I left my number at any website?*
Jiyong: Hope you're more cheered up!
Aishah: *giggles* (SOMEONE SLAP ME)
And then we started conversing in konglish.
Funny I tell you, my korean sucked and his English was terrible.
So we were laughing alot.
Then suddenly he had to go cause of practice :'(
Jiyong: Sorry I have to go already, practice you know, Heartbreaker~
Aishah: Oh, so soon? Aishh, arasso~ Neh, Heartbreaker! I love Heartbreaker :D *was about to sing but refrained*
Jiyong: Hmm~ See you~
Aishah: Yeahhhhh~ *giggles*
Jiyong: *puts down phone*
Aishah: But wait! *too late*
Aishah: I don't have your number~ T^T stupid private number.
So after that I remembered going shopping with my mom and still thinking about the conversation.
I still thought it was a prank.
So I decided to text Seungri.
I wanted to ask him if his hyung was on the phone just nau and probably to look at his phone-call-log to see if he had really called me.
I think Seungri was my baby boy~ *sings Kiss by Sandara Park*
Hehe, he was my bf :DDDDD
Panda-bf :D
But too bad, I woke up before that.
Was so pissed, firstly I broke into cold sweat, and then I was trembling and my damn dream ended there.
I NEVER WANNA MISS~ T_T
I think that was the best mysterious dream yet.
The other time was about Jiyong giving me a Blackberry as a birthday gift.
I think it was my birthday and I dunno why Seungri didn't give me anything.
Probably that Blackberry was from him just that he wasn't around to pass it to me so he gave it to Jiyong to give it to me.
But Jiyong didn't say it's from Seungri either.
Or maybe Jiyong forgot about my birthday, so he used that as HIS gift, stupid boy.
>_<
The rest I don't remember already :(
Awesome dreams but sleepless nights aigoo.
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Oh oh!
The other week I went shopping.
I thought it was a weird experience.
Do I really look that young?
Cause there was this woman who kept rubbing my cheeks.
She thought I was 14/15 years old.
And the other woman she said I looked very young and slim (HUH?!)
I just smiled.
I wanted to run away so badly.
I dunno why but when I receive compliments my face grow v hot and I just wanna run away.
Lol.
It wasn't the first time though.
The other time this random woman in the dressing room thought I was 13 when I was actually 16.
Geez.
I think the way I behave is reflecting on my face.
Yeah, I can't deny I'm childish, super childish.
Ooo, mom bought me my first (okay NOT first) $50 pair of heels.
I don't know why I did that but come to think of it, I wished I hadn't.
Could have bought a more worth-it bag, I mean no, my bag is awesome but I could have gotten something more.
Lol, well, at least I won't get blisters or anything like that, and no they're not as high as hooker heels.
Thank god.
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I've always wanted to do this, random thoughts that's been buzzing in and out of my head:
I realise I'm really scared of social situations.
Also, I get the "I-miss-you" pangs after 5 days of not talking to anyone, particularly Dongsaeng.
I really wanna go overseas, somewhere cold.
I miss Disneyland real bad :(
I wanted to be an air stewardess and a singer when I was younger, don't laugh, it's not THAT funny.
I'm starting to feel bored of my laptop *OMO*
I need to start eating properly.
I think my feet is fat, in fact I think I could shed some weight.
My teddy bear is more famous than me at home.
I should stop talking to him because he's snatching all the attention away from me at home *POUTS*
My sibling thinks I'm crazy for treating my teddy bear like a human being.
I don't know if I really do that but I always deny it.
I'm growing my hair long, patience I need lots of it.
I love Dongsaeng's new styled hair :D
I REALLY LOVE HEARTBREAKER.
And I need to stop spazzing over Jiyong, it's wrong, well not THAT wrong just-.. you get it.
Seungri is a very handsome boy.
I laugh when I watch Strong Baby nau.
I think he was ridiculously shy for his confidence when he was about to kiss the Noona.
Bwahaha~
Baby boy~
I want a pet so badly :(
Like a pet cat, you know like those really pretty grey siamese cats.
Everybody must watch the stalking cat.
I want a pet cat like Gaho.
I will name it Teddy like everyone in my family wants it to be but secretly calls it GAHO yah! :D
Hehe.
I will be a very happy soul to be sleeping next to this thing.
Awww, look at it sleep.
AND LOOK AT THE TEDDY BEAR! *SQUEALS*
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Did I mention I skipped band the whole week?
The first time ever!
Lol, frankly speaking, I'm like a little losing interest already, WHY.
I dunno maybe its the environment, the system, the people.
THE SCORES/REPETOIRE.
I think so lowly of myself sometimes.
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Anyway I have to go start cleaning!
Have an awesome week :D
Selamat Hari Raya~
No, I won't grow fat eating.
Haha, I really miss Dongsaeng,
When are we gonna do the shoes?~
Friday, 28 August 2009
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Heartbreaker - G-Dragon
Anyeong Haseo~
Whoo, this week has been rough :(
The exam papers were like, pain in my bums, aigoo~
Especially Chemistry, it was a sakldahdakldjalsdj kinda paper.
*sings Heartbreaker*
Yeahuh, that's why I'm always running after papers.
It's making me real tired and sick because of the rain!
Gahh, I don't like rainy days because it makes me feel sad and all reflective and er.. yeah.
And the thunder and lighting, omaigad~
Just yesterday I jumped out of my seat and got a shock of my life from a real loud thunder :(
Got so scared after that I was so jittery :/
Aigoo~
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All I can think of right nau is the stress over Anatomy & Physiology.
Not forgetting Biosystems & Biomolecules
(Bioseungri & Biopandas)
*squeals*
But after all these papers and stress, I'm gonna enjoy the rest of the month before Hari Raya (Whoo~)
Motivation: 1 more week, and then I can do this with dongsaeng :)
But this looks like they're overly stressed about school, lol, nah~
They're awesomely-handsome-cool-hot-*droolzspazzzz* people having fun.
After exams I'm gonna *sings* Let's go Party, work that Body~
Woo, my mom said I looked like I've lost weight :)
She kept touching my waist, so ticklish, I squirmed out of her reach :/
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Sometimes I feel stupid talking to myself or talking to random objects in my room like my pillows, teddy bears, pandas, mirror and many more objects.
I WANT A PET LIKE GAHO :(
so that I can run and play with it everyday.
and talk to it :)
and let it bite my nose.
but not my cheeks, Don't touch my cheeks~
Haha, I think Gaho is a very very VERY lucky pet, gets to sleep next to Jiyong :(
*jealous*
Shall dream of more Gaho-Aishah moments :3
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Aigoo, I shall go rest nau.
This entry was kinda pointless, just felt like writing a better entry than the previous one because I feel that its getting moody and sad.
BSBM & APHY~
MEMORY WORKOUT :D
HWAITING!
:D
*Paste SUN on my windows*
I don't like rainy days :(
Saturday, 22 August 2009
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I Don't Care - 2NE1
Let's make this really short so that I can drink Green Tea and .-. zzz~
I'm feeling very moody and grumpy and annoyed and sad and bitter and mad and aigoo, a lot more angsty stuff.
Firstly, my mom is-...
1 week, nothing.
I am not going to be petty about this but instead, I shall be adult about this.
Shall let her do whatever she wants and when she's cooled and realised that it really IS not naega fault,
I will be most happy to say something at home T_T
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I'm so lazy to explain the next situation but I just need to get this off my head.
Its not as if I really wanna bump into you,
Seriously gosh! That's the last thing I would ever wanna do because I don't know what to do when I see you.
And I really feel hurt because of the things you say because you don't know why I'm being so friggin defensive when it comes to topics like this.
Well, it's a long story I don't wish to share anw so stop saying stupid things as though I'm the bitch okay.
I know very well you tried to explain its a stupid misunderstanding but I don't or more like I make myself cannot be bothered or care about this kinda thing because I need to step away from it before I start doing stupid things, again.
So stop it, aigoo.
It's freaking disgusting and awkward and I HATE IT MORE THAN ANYTHING ELSE IN THE WORLD, ARASSO?
Anw, I'm not the only friggin friend you have, go get yourself a life, geez.
I guess no one knows how much I freak out when i see something I really try to avoid.
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I just feel that people should respect what others wanna do/feel/decide to do for whatever reasons that they have.
Really, the reasons are so important, I think I could die.
Now I feel so much more worse because of this 'I-could-die-post', thanks ah~
I think I sound like a bitch, I should stop here.
I'm freaking out just thinking of this, aigoo.
I don't know what to do T_T
I'm kinda sad you're busy :(
Must practise even more patience and ignorance. -
Emotion - Big Bang
Anyeong Haseo :3
18th August marks Kwon Jiyong's Birthday!
Saengil Chukka Hamnida Jiyong-ah~
^_^ I love your album, like they always say,'It's a Jackpot!'
Hwaiting~
Oh yeah, Big Bang's album is awesome too!
So many things to celebrate over but too bad the exams are butting in out of nowhere T_T
Gwaenchana, after exams, I will party like there's no tomorrow! :D
I've also update the jukebox there *points to the right*
Awesome blog, no doubt, fo sho! :D
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Phew~
This week is O to the V-E-R!
Whoo~ *Dance Strong Baby*
Because it was a hell week ending with a hellish mood, I had to celebrate.
Let me begin the egg-citing journey...
Monday was CRS presentation which was the most rushed presentation ever T_T
Firstly, Daniel did not finish his slide or more like did not even start on his slide till the night before the presentation @ 9pm, this made me go OMAIGAD I almost jumped.
Then, comes the hard part... The stupid script.
Though I prepared a book of script to be said during my point, I chucked it away at the last minute to just explain the points with whatever that comes to my mind when I lay my eyes on the point.
Anw, Daniel said I sounded monotonous, so I HAD TO chuck it away T_T
Awesome, because it was a new experience, I never EVER presented without a script before.
Well, thanks Daniel for the constant,"Can you stop stressing, relax chill dude, you did so many presentations before!"
I swear to god I was trembling so bad, my knees were weak.
I was so nervous I couldn't express my emotions on my face, that's how horrible it was.
The skit... Aigoo~
Don't wanna talk about it, I'm over-the-moon-embarrassed already!
Hopefully, it doesn't go on facebook/youtube.
Andwaeyo!!! >_<
Enough CRS, it was BSBM test right after that.
Screwed it upside down, no fun :(
Was worrying about my laptop battery lifespan cause I didn't charge it :(
And the fact that it hanged a few hours before the test didn't calm me down.
Plus, I couldn't recall stuff T_T
Aigoo, I swear I wanted to run and cry.
Skip to Thursday, BIMMUN TEST! :D
I love Bimmunology, I feel sad it's the last test we're taking.
Which means there's no more BIMMUN till year 3 T_T
The test was alright, hopefully I recalled everything correctly or suffer dire consequences on the MCQs *bites nails*
I really love Bimmun, in fact, I wanna be a specialist in that sector some day.
I wanna create cool vaccines and stuff :D
Awesome :3
Then we reach Friday.
Tried studying with dongsaeng at the school library today.
Aigoo, it wasn't AS productive as I wanted it to be :(
But I managed an exercise of Math and half a tutorial which took me forever to complete because I'mma lagger *pouts*
I wish I could study more with Dongsaeng before Exams next Tuesday, aigoo.
Anw, I don't wanna write any of this "what-Aishah-did-this-week" kinda post.
Shall post something more entertaining and drama the next time.
So many emotions going through ma head NAU, confused :S
YOU are being an insensitive piece of shit, geumanhae~
*glares*
Anyeong~
Wednesday, 12 August 2009
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Last Farewell - 2NE1/Big Bang
Aishah just finished her reflection for ONOW.
We'll do AWESOME later :D
And she just finished breakfast!
At 5am?!
Haha, preparing my day for fasting! ^_^
I sound crazy to be up blogging at 5am, hehehe.
Can't help it, been really high these few days, okay strike that.
Been really high these few NIGHTS.
._. sounds weird eh? hehehe~
Sometimes I wish to shake the people around me awake so that I can ask them, how they sleep.
I shall sleep now, for school is in 3 hrs time!
Good morning :)
I keep imagining myself presenting with a pink microphone, hahaha~
And dongsaeng, if you ever make me worry again...

I will torture you to world's end.
Hey, that doesn't sound like a bad idea ^_^
Just you... and me >:)
HEHEHE~
Saturday, 08 August 2009
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A-Go Go Go~ - CL
Anyeong Haseo~
Doesn't Seungri oppa looks hot when he's all sweaty?
And best of all, he's in PINK! :D
*SQUEALS*
Bommie just came back from intense-non-stop-jogging-skipping-running like 5 minutes ago!
Feeling so sticky, sweaty and my face is so red.
Woo, I feel so rejuvenated! ^_^
Gosh, after so long... I've been wanting to do this like since forever.
Though it was only 45 minutes, it was hell fun because no one is watching or waiting for me! Kekeke~
CL's voice kept me going, the "A-go-go-go!!!~"
HAHA, and Dara's pretty face when she runs kept popping in my head.
I almost laughed out loud when something Dara said popped in my head.
Remember in 2NE1 TV, her shoelaces came off?
She said she enjoyed those moments the most out of all the running etc.
I was looking at my shoelaces hoping it will come off but I realised mine is not those which you can tie but those you fasten, its still shoelaces though. Dang! Kekeke~ >.<
Ahhh, everyone should run run run!
It's fun and releases stress + endorphins too ^_^
I shall bathe now and update again soon :)
Anyeonggggggg~
A-go-go-go!!!~
P.S. MY SHOES BROKE :(
MY FAVOURITE PINK RUNNING SHOES BROKE!!! OMO, OTOGHE? T^T
I shall find a new one to replace this hot-pink one :( BUT BUT BUT I LOVE THESE SHOES! :'(
Oh yeah, sorry Kay, I didn't reply! I was running for endorphins, Hwaiting for your assignments!
And DONGSAENG TOO. I shall meet you very soon :)
Bogoshipda~
I MISS RUNNING TOGETHER :(
Yeah and we failed 2.4 KM last time, hahaha~
Princesses don't run! :P
Wednesday, 05 August 2009
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Again and Again - 2PM
Boohoo.
I keep going through this phase over and over again.
Like a relapse.
T^T
Maybe I'm just sensitive... but it's still driving me everywhere up the wall.
Or maybe I'm just stressed over I have no idea what.
I wish it stops.
Must have faith!
Lost and depressed.
Feeling much better.
*RAISES FINGER LIKE BOMMIE*
DON'T TOUCH MY TERRITORY, MY HONEY, MY DONGSAENGGGGGGGGG~
>:( ARASSO?
*GLARES*
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