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Friday, 01 January 2010

  • Last Farewell - Big Bang

    2009 is almost up~
    Aww, it was fun :)

    --
     
    Happy New Year!
    2010, here we come~



    May t    he year bring us good and everlasting friendship,
    never ending love and a closer us! *giggles*

    Of course, a smooth school/life ahead :)
    And good health!

    Saranghae baby

Saturday, 26 December 2009

  • Crazy - Son Dambi

    I'm being driven into insanity.

    Feeling like a bitch.
    I feel like slapping someone in the face.

    No more bloghopping,
    their angsty emotions are being transferred onto me.

    Stupid people and their stupid lives.
    Get a happy one.

    --

    Need to get some control.
    Over this (these) emotionz(s).

    --

    STEWPID SECTIONALS LATER.
    Should have slept eons ago :'(

  • Hello - G-Dragon ft. Sandara Park

    Awful christmas holiday : (
    Spent the entire day either sleeping, teebee-ing or wishing the rain would stop so that I can go for a run (apparently it didn't, so christmas is awful)
    Wanted to go out but I realised there isn't anywhere that I can go and I don't have anyone to go out with anw.
    You can't expect me to go out with my Teddy.
    It'll be so weird. . .

    --

    There's sectionals tomorrow : (
    Boo, I don't wanna go but I don't have a reason for it.
    Sleeping in is not a valid reason is it?

    *Pouts and sulks*

    --

    I think I should learn how to self-entertain.
    Everybody is ignoring me, like I'm not there.



    *SQUEALS*

    Bored as hellz,
    I shall do this for the next few hourz.
    Till I get bored of myselfz.

    --

    I came to tell you how miserable today was,
    because I didn't have you.


Thursday, 24 December 2009

  • Sorry Sorry - Super Junior




    All the questions you've asked me so far have been stuck in my head since forever.
    You don't know how much I've been thinking about them :(

    Yes I do worry what if I can't see you anymore, what if you or I get bored of each other because we hardly see each other, what if this, what if that.

    What ifs.

    But its beyond my control or yours.
    So let's just leave it at what if.

    --

    Feeling like shitz.
    Spiralling.
    Sigh.

    --

    I told you I can't control this emotion.

    --

    I'm sounding more and more gloomy as the entries get by.
    It's all too familiar isn't it?
    and it's all too scary.
    Shoot me in the face.

    Not in the mood for anything at all.

    --

    Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays btw ;)
    Yeap, it'll pass, I'll be okay.

    --

    I just want you, is it that hard?

Wednesday, 23 December 2009

  • Emotion - Big Bang

    Jealousy is consuming me.
    I don't even feel like doing anything but cry.

    It's inevitable.
    I just had to have jealousy.

    I feel totally idiotic.

    --

    Sometimes I don't feel like talking to you.
    But I can't do that because something about you compels and draws me to you.

    Kill me.

    --

    so depressing.

Sunday, 13 December 2009

  • Let Me Hear Your Voice - Big Bang




    I've had so many dreams in one day.
    Imagine the amount of sleep I'm indulging myself into.

    --

    I don't feel like doing anything other than snuggle in bed.

    --
     
    Its so weird what half-an-hour-naps can do to you.
    I miss you terribly :(
    I'm going krazy with crying spells every    time I wake up.
    I miss you that terribly baby :'(

    Can't wait till D-Day.


Saturday, 12 December 2009

  • Stay Together - 2NE1

    Baby's leaving in a few hours time and I don't know what to do.
    I think I'm going to stay up till she leaves, and then I'm going to nap for a while and wake up (hopefully not crying) and then go for a morning run with my mom and then think of what else I can do to put my mind off sadness.
    My mom says the Malaysia trip is off but she won't mind going shopping with me.
    I'm not in the mood to do anything really, till she comes back.
    Love, come back soon!

    Can't even think straight knowing that my extremely long weekend is extremely long and lonely.
    But she'll be back soon, right?
    Yes she will.
    She must.

    I'm gonna be a wreck for a few days.
    I hope people around me won't mind me throwing occasional tantrums and moodswings and crying spells.
    But it's only for a few days till she comes back.
    I'll survive.

    Come home soon or unnie baby won't survive.
    Unnie baby will miss you so much :'(
    I can't even describe what I'm actually feeling right now, like almost depressed.

    Take care.

    --

    Don't know what to write about anymore actually.
    I came up a few minutes ago to write a Happy Birthday wish for my love.
    And then I was thinking of what else to write, anything that's not so emotional and heartwrenching and sad.
    But I can't come up with anything :(

    Okay maybe I can.
    MST was alright.
    I am awaiting for the results.
    Hopefully I didn't do too badly, I really hope.
    God have mercy on this poor soul.

    Cell Biology was mind-draining cause of all the information we had to absorb in 2 days, but I guess it went better than Microbiology, I wanted to cry on that.
    Don't remind me about the last question, what sort of person would set such a question?!
    My 20 marks just flew like that know? omaigad~

    Math was disappointing.
    Its like I've never felt worse about a math paper before.
    I suppose its the curse of the Microbio paper from the previous day.
    I am disappointed.

    Chemistry was almost fine.
    I studied so much but what came out was so minute.
    I had to comfort myself by telling myself that at least I know more about Chemistry nau than before despite the qns not appearing as I wanted them to.

    MST is over, holidays are here and its making me all stressed :(

    --

    Forget band, I want to kill myself just by looking at the schedule.
    *deletes email*

    AND I DON'T WANT TO ATTEND BAND CAMP.

    --

    I just wanna have fun and go out or laze around with the person I love and watch funny comedies or CSI or chick flicks or romantic movies all day.

    Currently hooked on IRIS.
    TOP you can come and kill me, I really don't mind :3
    Its a sad story actually, or maybe my emotion-factory *knocks head* is not working right.
    I shall finish up the whole series and watch it all over again :)

    Oh oh!
    Lipstick Jungle is nice too.
    But I find it too erm... scandalous? rated?
    I'm not really into those kinda scenes know?
    Makes me feel sinned.
    But overall its nice cause of the way they talk, the way they dress and the way they bring themselves.

    Power-driven, cool, fashionable, hot, successful women.
    (scandalous and horny and wild women too)

    Or we can watch makeover shows!
    They're fun and interesting in a way cause you'd never expect anyone to look THAT way.
    But there are people who are THAT way.
    *shrugs*

    I was watching this show about making over twins.
    But at the last minute, they decided to make over only 1 twin.
    Omaigad, the tears, it was as though they had to sacrifice one twin for the other to be pretty or sth.
    Gosh, I felt for them because that's how I'm feeling right now.
    Being separated, it's almost impossible to survive.
    Short term yes we can do this,  but long term, we will perish.

    Its just not possible.
    I need my person.

    --

    Okay let's just settle for CSI.
    Too much to think about lol.
    Anw dead people distracts my mind off bad -ve things.

    --

    You know this post was just for you.
    I hope you'll have fun and not worry at all :)

    Baby I love you ;)
    Enjoy your holidays love.

    *bobo and hugs*

    I'm gonna miss you and everything about you (winks)
    I think I'm in love with you or something, 24/7 its always you, going hysterical just because you're gg on away on a short holiday~
    Aishh, I don't know what to say, maybe I love you too much.
    Oh well~ *hugs*

    Sometimes I think we're G-ri.
    And when I do think about us like that, I wonder who is the G and who is the Ri xD
    We'll discuss this when we have the time :P


    This is adorable beyond words :X
    And I have this feeling that I'm G cause you're always.. erm I always.. erm, nvm :/


    Come back soon~ :*

  • Baby Baby - Big Bang

    "I wanna thank myself for working so hard, that's why I'm receiving this award~"

    Sounds all too familiar?
    No?
    Of course it does!
    It's baby maknae strong baby Lee Seunghyun's favourite speech :)



    Haha, kidding baby~
    He must be thinking I'm the worse VIP ever for exposing him on his adorable speech :3

    Happy Birthday Baby Maknae~
    I just love calling you that, makes you look really cute C:
    Hope you have an awesome birthday, I'm sure many VIPs did this before I did but yeah at least I wished you a very awesome birthday~

    I love you :)

    --

    Don't really know what to say cause I'm afraid people might think I'm crazy.
    *shrugs*

    --

    I just hope you have an awesome birthday, good food, great party, awesome gifts and of course surrounded with the people you love baby ah~ And of course I hope you're always happy and jovial like you have always been :)


    Amazing hot handsome boy ;)
    Saranghae

Wednesday, 25 November 2009

  • Please Don't Go - CL & Minzy

    I worry like krazy.

    There was once where I was so clingy to X,
    I wouldn't let go of X,
    I would track down of whatever X does, wherever X goes, etc.
    Then one day, X got so mad and annoyed,
    X hated me for doing what I did, so X left.

    I don't want this to happen because of my clingy nature,
    but it's getting out of hand, this clingy nature.
    It's making me depressed.

    Why am I like this.
    Why do I like physical contact so much, that if I don't get it I will cry.
    How am I suppose to continue living and crying at the same time.
    How am I suppose to survive on my own.

    --

    Maybe I can't :(
    WAEYO :'(

Saturday, 14 November 2009

  • You and I - Park Bom

    Woo, I know its been a long time since I decided to write anything here.
    Well, life got rolling really fast and I didn't have time to sit down to write down everything I felt or did anymore :(
    Plus, most of the things that were rolling towards or with me are pretty normal kinda things, like a typical teenager life know? You get the drift :)

    School's fine, Lecturers are fine (ok, most of them?), Lectures are alright (alot of self-study sessions), Lab Practicals are HELL FUN (I miss Cell Biology btw, come back soon LeeLee), Weather is horrible cause it keeps changing really abruptly and weirdly (its monsoon season you see + global warming = terrible weather changes = sick aishah).

    I love school, I dread end of the week because not only is it 4h of IOChem but also I don't get to see my love till Monday. 2 days is long enough to make me go crazy know? Plus, everything's more fun with her around :) She's awesome by the way. Like she makes me calm, think +ve-ly about everything (well, I know she tries to make me feel better/good all the time, sweet love, that's what unnie-dongsaengs are for), ensures that I work well, you know self-motivated, motivated, focused on the right things for the right period of time - study + play, and makes sure that I am always having my meals so that I can be healthy! She looks after me a lot though it might not be very obvious, well at least I think so too, angels :)

    I really think life is resuming back like how it used to be, the study-24/7-in-mind-so-that-I-can-be-a-doctor life.
    Which is a good thing know? Cause it makes me feel so secure, not much nonsense to worry about other than school. Plus, good company (ies) makes life more comforting.

    Haha, I know I don't usually speak much anywhere, but just so you know, I'm fine :)

     

    I like to do this, stare at some random object and have lots of thoughts of about it and then when someone recognizes me or when someone says Hi, I'll have to switch the dazed face to a really smiley-HELLO face. *chuckles*
    It's a funny transition, no?

    Btw, Park Bom is hot.
    So is Seungri.
    Taeyang's new MV was sad.
    Park Bom's 'You and I' MV drove me to tears.
    YG loves sad korean dramas.

    Except for Bong's MVs.
    They're all HIS concepts, so I don't think Jiyong likes sad MVs.
    Cause they're so pretty and abstract and hot, lol.

    Seungri has a nice voice.
    *SQUEALS*

    --

    I see a lot of heart shapes on Facebook recently.
    Makes my eyes go ._. and my heart go wth is wrong with you people we're suppose to study now so that we can become future doctors, lawyers, president of the entire nation, CEO of XYZ company, a really smart scientist, a recognized surgeon, and the list goes on. And NO, I'm not anywhere near jealous, just annoyed why people do this. Maybe I don't understand what is it like and maybe I'm just a workaholic. Lol, people and perceptions of their own lifes. Can't do much to change their purpose in life know? It's my drive.

    --

    There's so many things to complete, I'm given that much time to do so.
    Reports after reports, non-stop.
    Tutorials after tutorials, non-stop.
    Lectures after lectures, non-stop.
    Band practices, and more of them.
    Okay the first 3 is fine, the last one is a pain in my tush.
    Can't wait for MD to end so that I can get a good long rest from the stress of double-tonguing, triplets, 160 beats and what-nots, right love?
    And no, I don't wanna go overseas with people I don't know or with people I'm not sure of.
    Lol, I tried and epik failz. Not a nice feeling~

    MST > HOLS > MD > HOLS > SCH > EXAMS :D

    --

    What am I blabbering about huh, I should sleep because the night is very cold *hides under covers*
    I won't wake up at 6am tomorrow, I MUST NOT WAKE UP AT 6AM TOMORROW! *tape shut eyelids*
    Keep warm everybody :3

    --

    I wished we owned a house, and my bed was yours, my comforters are yours too and so are the pillows~
    Most importantly, I'm definitely yours love :3 *winks*
    Haha, I keep saying I wanna rape you -_- but youre just so nice to touch.
    Those. .  *stops*


    You and I forever and ever.
    Right love?
    Keep warm~